One arm behind my back

Or one finger on a phone screen. House burglarized. Laptop gone. Hard to blog. Condolences accepted, but I don't want to talk about "violated". I refuse to feel that. I am bummed, demoralized, annoyed and frustrated. But it's stuff, just that.  I can still write. I can still even upload pictures if I get the app. I can even write on a piece of paper with a pen. Life goes on.

Start over!

I had a birthday, so it's time to re-set, refresh, scribble on a new page, yes? But it's never quite as easy as it seems. There's still old luggage to handle. Change is not always good, just for the sake of changing things. I thinking the goal is more about subtle adjustment. The same, only more and better?

But how? I think the framework might be in a book that's been on my nightstand for weeks. (But which one? nyuck nyuck nyuck... But seriously, there a lot of books there. It's the legacy of being an English major.) Confession: I'm a self-help book addict. And we like to hear things that are familiar, but I think I'm picking the most boring goal to blog about ever. I'm going to try to do nothing.

It was recommended to my by a Martha Beck book called "The Joy Diet". I'm kind of a Martha Beck fan. She got one of the thank you notes from the last project. But I am thinking (agreeing!) that the key to getting outside yourself and being able to connect with things begins with the ability to be with yourself quietly first.

I guess you would call this meditation. But it is really boring to talk about. It's like announcing that you're going to start breathing or sweating (which I've got to do more of, too). And it's not like I haven't announced those things before. It just garners more interest because it's external activity. Stating that you're going internal to do nothing is pretty non-climatic.

Oh, what? you say sleepily. There was a dust mote floating. Yep, I'm going to watch that too.

My 5th Chakra's sound is HAM.

As is yours. But because I am immature (think 12 year old boy....) I started to smile. Because I was totally thinking of pork products. So I'm now quite certain that's my favorite chakra - the throat, thyroid, and bacon connection is too much to ignore.

I was also musing about how there is no new information. Ever. I already knew everything I ever learned. And you're not learning anything new, either. We're just sort of remembering and forgetting the same things over and over. I can't even call myself Master of the Obvious - because I'm not the master!

I reached this enlightened state at a belly dance workshop this morning. I have affirmations now, keep myself protected. Or at least cured. Cured meat products. Salty, delicious..... bacon.